Nostalgia

One morning, while I was alone in our house, I played some music from my phone connected to a speaker. I am a music lover and for me, it’s one of the best therapies whenever I am stressed. Coincidentally, there was this song that’s on track and I felt like I was in our Junior-Senior Promenade again. Not that it was a cheesy kind of song but it was actually a song that I used to dance--with him--that night.

While I was listening to the song whole-heartedly, I could clearly remember how it happened and how I was able to dance with him. That evening, when that sweet music played, everybody grabbed their partners and there I was, sitting underneath the dancing lights and I felt so frozen because my crush—whom I’d like to dance with— was just beside me. Imagine that! My heart felt like it was going to get out from my mouth. At first, I felt so ridiculous when I asked him “Have we danced already?” My intention, honestly, was to break the ice within us but then I realized that it seemed like I was asking him for a dance! I’d like to run away after saying it. But, without answering my question, he stood up and said, “Come on, let’s dance.”

He was not actually my first dance. I had not even danced with him during our junior prom. I just had that opportunity in our senior prom—our last year together. It was my first time, I think, to hold his hands and be as near as if we were hugging. His proximity shattered my nerves and I didn’t know what to do. Of course, I did blush. Who would not feel that way? I didn't know if he saw it since it was a bit dark. Sure thing was, I knew I couldn’t help myself smiling like a crazy girl.

What made it special was when he sang the lyrics with me. You might be surprised with what I’m about to say, but from the start of our dance till the end, we were not looking at each other. A glance maybe, but I had no idea why we were so shy. He didn’t know how I felt that time and up until now, it still has an effect on me. One of the memorable things I did in my entire high school life was to spend at least 3 minutes of my life dancing with him.
When the song that was playing in my phone hit its last lyrics, the vivid memories from the past year was slowly fading… slowly tore my feeling. I didn’t know why it did. Until, all of a sudden, I thought maybe, I was just missing him.